tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2682063299098079052.post1952309716380770784..comments2017-01-28T08:04:02.797-08:00Comments on The Little Tea Lady: Secrets I Don't Want To Tell Anyone About My DepressionAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09903261724128502237noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2682063299098079052.post-57374710631711590832017-01-14T13:18:02.190-08:002017-01-14T13:18:02.190-08:00Reading this was a great relief for me. I, too, st...Reading this was a great relief for me. I, too, struggle between wanting to feel better and wanting to hold on to the familiar place I've been in for years. In my depression, I know what to expect, or rather, what not to expect. On days when I'm feeling neutral, I don't want to die, but I don't want to live either. On days when I'm feeling better, I don't want to take my meds so I can go back to what I'm used to. But on bad days, I don't want to take my meds so I can finally hit bottom and end it. The result is taking less than half the meds I should, feeling scared if I laugh, and settling for self harm over death. I've never put these thoughts into words before because they make me feel so alone. I didn't think anyone else would understand.Duckaholichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06410868890712698864noreply@blogger.com